What matters the most and your "highest good" in life? Let me encourage you to persist and not despair. There is a world of difference between "effort" and "result." "Effort" is something you can control whereas "result" is frequently out of your control. There could be many times when despite your best effort you may still fail. And that often the best answer may be to change the nature of how you do it so you can get what you want. That's how you excel as a person and as a performer in this passing game we call "life." Follow your dream.