The wound of sexual abuse is an emotional wound. If you experienced it as a child and you were not helped to process your trauma, then your ability to express your emotions freely and openly could be severely damaged. One time I had a session with a young woman who suddenly felt waves of terror and outrage without remembering the event that prompted her feelings. Her feelings were confused and jumbled up. It's truly possible to suffer the emotional impact of abuse without remembering or having cognitive information of the source. This is especially so when there is what psychoanalysts call "repression" of feelings. Such "repression" then cause "symptoms" or secondary consequences of the sexual abuse experienced in childhood. Survivors well into the active therapy stage of recovery get happiest and strongest when they are most freely able to spontaneously feel their experiences, share them, and work through them.